New Beginnings

Every night a white cat comes home to sleep on my bed n leaves the next morning. Then I do not see her for the entire day..even if I go looking for her, I don't find her anywhere. But then at night when I open my door, there she is waiting patiently for me to welcome her into my house so she can sleep on my bed like the royalty she is.  This had happened earlier, then it stopped. Then unexpectedly i come home one night, n she's lying on my welcome mat outside my door, sleepy, looking at me as if to ask, ' where have u been? I have been waiting here '.  I open my door n she walks right in as if she belongs, explores the entire house all over again n then jumps on my bed n goes right to sleep. Come morning,her meowing wakes me up, demanding to be let out.  N the cycle begins again. Mind you..she never eats in my house nor has she marked it yet. I m a vegan so perhaps I think she doesn't like vegan food. Well, I don't force her..not that you can force a free sp

                               Relationships are such tricky bastards. a few bad experiences in any part of your life can sour your experiences for the rest of your life. but then having said that, is it our past experiences that sour us or experiences with particular people that sour us towards any future prospects?? for eg; if you were sexually abused as a child, would it cause you to distrust every male in the future? or would u perhaps be attracted towards the abusive type personality? if you were abused as a wife or a husband, would you then cease to trust the next potential person who came into your life or would you perhaps be attracted only to a personality type similar to that of your ex? if your parent(s) were partial toawrds your siblings during your childhood, would it cause you to hate your parent(s) or would you strive harder to become their ideal child? if your best friends ultimately turned out never to have loved you for yourself but just for what you could prov

10.25 in the morning, sitting in front of my TV watching or not watching Tarzan II, I guess it’s just on so that I have some noise in the house… there - its on mute now..but then why do I still have it on…ok…the TV’s off now. Ok, so where was I? Oh yea, 10.25 in the morning, sitting with my phone in my hand trying to write something coz many of my friends have shown faith in me by encouraging me to write n I m sick n tired of telling them that I m not a writer. N yet they keep telling me to go ahead n write. So here goes nothing. After a very emotional evening yesterday n a very tempting suicidal day before (quite literally), I was actually googling ways to commit suicide painlessly…yea my friend found it very funny when I was crying my heart out to him yesterday evening..he actually burst out laughing when he heard me say that..poor guy cudnt help himself..but he ended up giving me some good advice.. he gave me all the clichés possible that we all hear these days primarily thr