U lied to me. I know, I know, u said several times that what we have n can ever have is only a casual relationship. And yet I was stupid enough to fall for u... Hook, line n sinker. And you were perceptive enough to realize it. I remember the day u warned me against getting involved with you. And I remember my reply as well. I said in all my naivety, "don't worry, it's my problem, not yours".
Days passed, all seemed well. In my heart of hearts, I kept thinking that with time maybe you will begin to see me for who I am, like me... you already do, maybe with time you might even fall in love with me. And so it seemed. As your respect for me grew, I imagined you started loving me as well. Or so it seemed. The way your messages took on a more personal touch, I imagined you wanted to get to know me more intimately. Or so it seemed. The way we cudnt get thru the day without keeping each other updated, I imagined you had begun caring for me the way I do for u. Or so it seemed. The way we just had to share everything funny with each other, right from jokes to memes, I imagined we always wanted to share the fun with each other. Or so it seemed.
And yet out of the blue, u lied to me. If u wanted me out of ur life, all you had to do was tell me to leave. I wud have gladly left. But u chose to lie to me. To break my trust. To break my heart.
And what a vicious lie. A one week love story culminating into marriage. What a load of bs.
Do u even realize when a woman bares her body n heart to u, she's not just shedding clothes n words but also baring her soul to u??!! That she's trusting u with her most prized possession.. Her soul, her dreams, her fears.
I hoped but never expected. I was happy with what little u were emotionally capable of giving.
And yet The one thing i trusted u never to do, u did. U lied to me.
Every night a white cat comes home to sleep on my bed n leaves the next morning. Then I do not see her for the entire day..even if I go looking for her, I don't find her anywhere. But then at night when I open my door, there she is waiting patiently for me to welcome her into my house so she can sleep on my bed like the royalty she is. This had happened earlier, then it stopped. Then unexpectedly i come home one night, n she's lying on my welcome mat outside my door, sleepy, looking at me as if to ask, ' where have u been? I have been waiting here '. I open my door n she walks right in as if she belongs, explores the entire house all over again n then jumps on my bed n goes right to sleep. Come morning,her meowing wakes me up, demanding to be let out. N the cycle begins again. Mind you..she never eats in my house nor has she marked it yet. I m a vegan so perhaps I think she doesn't like vegan food. Well, I don't force her..not that you can force a free sp...
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