U lied to me. I know, I know, u said several times that what we have n can ever have is only a casual relationship. And yet I was stupid enough to fall for u... Hook, line n sinker. And you were perceptive enough to realize it. I remember the day u warned me against getting involved with you. And I remember my reply as well. I said in all my naivety, "don't worry, it's my problem, not yours".
Days passed, all seemed well. In my heart of hearts, I kept thinking that with time maybe you will begin to see me for who I am, like me... you already do, maybe with time you might even fall in love with me. And so it seemed. As your respect for me grew, I imagined you started loving me as well. Or so it seemed. The way your messages took on a more personal touch, I imagined you wanted to get to know me more intimately. Or so it seemed. The way we cudnt get thru the day without keeping each other updated, I imagined you had begun caring for me the way I do for u. Or so it seemed. The way we just had to share everything funny with each other, right from jokes to memes, I imagined we always wanted to share the fun with each other. Or so it seemed.
And yet out of the blue, u lied to me. If u wanted me out of ur life, all you had to do was tell me to leave. I wud have gladly left. But u chose to lie to me. To break my trust. To break my heart.
And what a vicious lie. A one week love story culminating into marriage. What a load of bs.
Do u even realize when a woman bares her body n heart to u, she's not just shedding clothes n words but also baring her soul to u??!! That she's trusting u with her most prized possession.. Her soul, her dreams, her fears.
I hoped but never expected. I was happy with what little u were emotionally capable of giving.
And yet The one thing i trusted u never to do, u did. U lied to me.
10.25 in the morning, sitting in front of my TV watching or not watching Tarzan II, I guess it’s just on so that I have some noise in the house… there - its on mute now..but then why do I still have it on…ok…the TV’s off now. Ok, so where was I? Oh yea, 10.25 in the morning, sitting with my phone in my hand trying to write something coz many of my friends have shown faith in me by encouraging me to write n I m sick n tired of telling them that I m not a writer. N yet they keep telling me to go ahead n write. So here goes nothing. After a very emotional evening yesterday n a very tempting suicidal day before (quite literally), I was actually googling ways to commit suicide painlessly…yea my friend found it very funny when I was crying my heart out to him yesterday evening..he actually burst out laughing when he heard me say that..poor guy cudnt help himself..but he ended up giving me some good advice.. he gave me all the clichés possible that we all hear these days primarily thr...
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