U lied to me. I know, I know, u said several times that what we have n can ever have is only a casual relationship. And yet I was stupid enough to fall for u... Hook, line n sinker. And you were perceptive enough to realize it. I remember the day u warned me against getting involved with you. And I remember my reply as well. I said in all my naivety, "don't worry, it's my problem, not yours".
Days passed, all seemed well. In my heart of hearts, I kept thinking that with time maybe you will begin to see me for who I am, like me... you already do, maybe with time you might even fall in love with me. And so it seemed. As your respect for me grew, I imagined you started loving me as well. Or so it seemed. The way your messages took on a more personal touch, I imagined you wanted to get to know me more intimately. Or so it seemed. The way we cudnt get thru the day without keeping each other updated, I imagined you had begun caring for me the way I do for u. Or so it seemed. The way we just had to share everything funny with each other, right from jokes to memes, I imagined we always wanted to share the fun with each other. Or so it seemed.
And yet out of the blue, u lied to me. If u wanted me out of ur life, all you had to do was tell me to leave. I wud have gladly left. But u chose to lie to me. To break my trust. To break my heart.
And what a vicious lie. A one week love story culminating into marriage. What a load of bs.
Do u even realize when a woman bares her body n heart to u, she's not just shedding clothes n words but also baring her soul to u??!! That she's trusting u with her most prized possession.. Her soul, her dreams, her fears.
I hoped but never expected. I was happy with what little u were emotionally capable of giving.
And yet The one thing i trusted u never to do, u did. U lied to me.
I m currently on a "family vacation" at my mom's house in our native place which is quite modern. I m forced to mention this since in our Indian culture, we tend to think of our native place as that rural place where we go duty bound once a year to pay our dues. Anyways, here I m with my dysfunctional family of two elder brothers one of whom refuses to acknowledge me as his sister n the other still trying to control the house. And I discovered something suddenly today..well..not so much as discovered as realised...it was an eureka moment... I realised that Indian men(most of them) do not appreciate the intelligence of Indian women. They still see themselves as some superior, highly intelligent species ( and here I m trying very hard to control my vocabulary n not give vent to the abusive language that is itching to come out of me). Some of my male readers out there may feel offended by reading this.. however to prove my point,i will give you all a simple example..an ...
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