Gone are the days when we used to sit with pen n paper in hand n contemplate what to write. Nowadays we sit with phone or tablet in hand trying to figure it out n by the time we do, the screen locks itself n then we have to go thru the entire ritual of unlocking the damn screen n by then we have lost the thread of our thoughts. Today the urge to pen something down is very strong within me but I have no idea what I want to write. So I m going to ramble. N once I m done, if it makes sense then I will publish it or I may publish it just for the heck of it.
Why are relationships soooooo bloody complicated? U find someone u like, u meet up, things happen n then what?? Where does it go from there??
I am the kind of person who has never believed in 'casual relationships'. Yet now at this stage of my life, I m forced to give it a whirl just so I can at least meet men without scaring them off. Haha. Funny, eh? Not so much.
And hey, u know what... I just realized that in the last five to six years, all the men that I have dated n had a relationship with have eventually moved on to get married to other women while I m left high n dry on my mighty horse of casual relationship waving them into their happily married sunsets with a smile on my face n a broken heart.
And here I am once again... Met someone who is single, never been married, a sworn bachelor which at this stage is very rare to find coz most men my age are all married with families ( not that the men I was dating were married but they were a few years younger than me) n who specifically mentioned that he never intended to get married. So here I m, Happy in the thought that at least this one won't be going anywhere soon when a couple of weeks later he drops a bomb on me saying that he will get married within this year coz his family wants him to.
I ask u, what the hell is all this about?? I mean, give me a break. Oh n wait.I haven't said it all..
Never in a million years will he consider that he cud marry me.. like..Hello... Here I am.. u like me.. u love talking to me..U love spending time with me.. when we r away from each other, u think of me n msg me.. so if we r so compatible then why don't u marry me? Why doesn't it cross ur mind that hey, here's a girl I like..So if my family wants me to marry then why not her!!
But no..I will tell u why not.. coz like most Indian men, u can fuck around all u want but when it's time to get married, u want a girl with a 'clean chit'.
Need I say any more?!
I m currently on a "family vacation" at my mom's house in our native place which is quite modern. I m forced to mention this since in our Indian culture, we tend to think of our native place as that rural place where we go duty bound once a year to pay our dues. Anyways, here I m with my dysfunctional family of two elder brothers one of whom refuses to acknowledge me as his sister n the other still trying to control the house. And I discovered something suddenly today..well..not so much as discovered as realised...it was an eureka moment... I realised that Indian men(most of them) do not appreciate the intelligence of Indian women. They still see themselves as some superior, highly intelligent species ( and here I m trying very hard to control my vocabulary n not give vent to the abusive language that is itching to come out of me). Some of my male readers out there may feel offended by reading this.. however to prove my point,i will give you all a simple example..an ...
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