Gone are the days when we used to sit with pen n paper in hand n contemplate what to write. Nowadays we sit with phone or tablet in hand trying to figure it out n by the time we do, the screen locks itself n then we have to go thru the entire ritual of unlocking the damn screen n by then we have lost the thread of our thoughts. Today the urge to pen something down is very strong within me but I have no idea what I want to write. So I m going to ramble. N once I m done, if it makes sense then I will publish it or I may publish it just for the heck of it.
Why are relationships soooooo bloody complicated? U find someone u like, u meet up, things happen n then what?? Where does it go from there??
I am the kind of person who has never believed in 'casual relationships'. Yet now at this stage of my life, I m forced to give it a whirl just so I can at least meet men without scaring them off. Haha. Funny, eh? Not so much.
And hey, u know what... I just realized that in the last five to six years, all the men that I have dated n had a relationship with have eventually moved on to get married to other women while I m left high n dry on my mighty horse of casual relationship waving them into their happily married sunsets with a smile on my face n a broken heart.
And here I am once again... Met someone who is single, never been married, a sworn bachelor which at this stage is very rare to find coz most men my age are all married with families ( not that the men I was dating were married but they were a few years younger than me) n who specifically mentioned that he never intended to get married. So here I m, Happy in the thought that at least this one won't be going anywhere soon when a couple of weeks later he drops a bomb on me saying that he will get married within this year coz his family wants him to.
I ask u, what the hell is all this about?? I mean, give me a break. Oh n wait.I haven't said it all..
Never in a million years will he consider that he cud marry me.. like..Hello... Here I am.. u like me.. u love talking to me..U love spending time with me.. when we r away from each other, u think of me n msg me.. so if we r so compatible then why don't u marry me? Why doesn't it cross ur mind that hey, here's a girl I like..So if my family wants me to marry then why not her!!
But no..I will tell u why not.. coz like most Indian men, u can fuck around all u want but when it's time to get married, u want a girl with a 'clean chit'.
Need I say any more?!
10.25 in the morning, sitting in front of my TV watching or not watching Tarzan II, I guess it’s just on so that I have some noise in the house… there - its on mute now..but then why do I still have it on…ok…the TV’s off now. Ok, so where was I? Oh yea, 10.25 in the morning, sitting with my phone in my hand trying to write something coz many of my friends have shown faith in me by encouraging me to write n I m sick n tired of telling them that I m not a writer. N yet they keep telling me to go ahead n write. So here goes nothing. After a very emotional evening yesterday n a very tempting suicidal day before (quite literally), I was actually googling ways to commit suicide painlessly…yea my friend found it very funny when I was crying my heart out to him yesterday evening..he actually burst out laughing when he heard me say that..poor guy cudnt help himself..but he ended up giving me some good advice.. he gave me all the clichés possible that we all hear these days primarily thr...
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